Depression is often unseen by many. Some days you can stir up the strength to smile and get out of bed, but most days you feel worthless, numb, and alone. And almost every day, you’d rather be a ghost just so you can avoid everybody and everything.
And, it’s constant. Behind every smile is that feeling of sadness, ruminating, affecting your every thought and every your decision. It just won’t go away and it’s starting to feel like it’s taken over your life. It’s caused you to cancel plans, distance yourself from family and friends, have thoughts of self-harm or just putting an end to it all. There it is again, that feeling of doom and loneliness.
Depression can come and go. Sometimes it decides to stay for a couple of days and sometimes it stays for months. But, why? Why can’t I just overcome it already? Why can’t I just smile and pray that it all goes away? Well, sometimes it’s not our choice. But you don’t have to figure it all out on your own.
What are the First Warning Signs: *Regularly experiencing several of the signs and symptoms listed below, most of the day, nearly every day, for at least two weeks, may be an indication that you may be suffering from depression:
- Persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, or the feeling of being “empty”
- Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, hopelessness, or helplessness
- Feeling restless or having trouble sitting still
- Feelings of irritability
- Decreased energy level (fatigue)
- Difficulty with concentration, memory, or decision-making
- Difficulty sleeping, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
- A loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities
- Thoughts of self-harm, death or suicide, or suicide attempts
- Increase or Decrease in appetite and/or weight change
- Physical distress causing unknown aches, pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems